Ultrasound!

I had my ultrasound today. It was exciting. And also rather hard on the bladder :P
but the results are in:


yay! I was really hoping it would be a girl, but that's ok. Boys are nice too. If you teach them to be, that is...

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Monkey in the Middle

As of tomorrow I'm 20 weeks pregnant. So far it hasn't been all that great-- first trimester I had constant morning sickness, and then by the time it subsided, I started getting hit really hard by depression and anxiety (yuck!). But since I started getting treatment for it about a week ago, things seem alot better. I'm not sure if its the medication, or just the thought that finally someone is listening to me and not just blathering on that "no psychiatrist will touch me since I'm pregnant" or that "if it's really that bad I should check into a psychiatric ward until the baby's born because I can't take any medication"... honestly, that woman ought to be fired. She knows as much about mental health as my cat... possibly less, as my cat is very warm and cuddly and makes me feel better when life seems to suck.

The only complaint I have this week is although I haven't started showing, my stomach is no longer the chubby li'l tummy it once was, causing serious issuse with finding a comfortable sleeping position. I can no longer lay on my stomach because the pressure hurts, but my bed is unfortunately very cheap (169.96 at Holbrook's!) and therefore terribly uncomfortable, so sleeping on my side leaves me waking up with various parts that stick out further than the rest hurting. I have to keep switching sides all night long so I wake up about 304872340740482048 more times than normal, even considering that I am a terribly light sleeper. At night I lay there awake daydreaming of buying like 3 egg crate pads and cutting a hole in the middle for my tummy so I can once again sleep comfortably. But alas, I am utterly and completely broke, so it's out of the question.

It's not all bad though, on Tuesday I have the ultrasound, so I get to find out if it's a boy or a girl. Yay! I can't wait. Originally, my fiance', Erik, was supposed to go with me, but he supposed to start a new job next week and will already be missing Monday because he has his own doctor's appointment that day. He wanted to tell his new boss that he couldn't start until Wednesday, but I told him not to. It's been essentially pointless to bring him to all the appointments thus far, and we really can't afford for him to miss more work than necessary. And anyway, my best friend Sam wants to come along. She'll get more out of if than he will, anyway. It's not necessarily his fault, but he just doesn't seem to get it. I've heard that it's not really real to guys until you start showing, and I hope that's the case, because I feel like he's not really all that helpful or supportive. He tries to be, but he's clueless. Oh well. Guys aren't all that bright about baby and pregnancy stuff anyway. At least he never complains about me not touching the litter box or taking out the trash. Points for him for that!

off to make dinner... from everything I hear and read, it's a luxury I will surely miss once the wee little dragon gets here :)

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